Samantha Barks is sensational singing the song, "On My Own." There could not have been anyone else walking in the rain, singing those heart-wrenching words, and be as relatable. She is spectacular.
"Suddenly," so wonderfully sung by Hugh Jackman. I realize it was not included in any Broadway Productions of Les Miserables, but when I went to see the movie on December 26, 2012, it was the one song that grabbed my heart strings and made me listen. I am getting married on August 3, 2013, and I am hopeful we use this song as Our First Dance (if we do such a thing.) It so adequately describes a lot of things that have happened in my life recently. I was not looking, or planning, or necessarily even aware of some things, and suddenly, just suddenly, things happened: pathways were there, people were there, love was there, when it had been absent for so long.
I like quite a few of the songs from this soundtrack actually. "Stars," sung by Russell Crowe, is wonderful. He may not be the most amazing singer, but I really like his rendition. That is quite possibly my favorite scene from the entire movie; Javert singing from the rooftop under a starry sky.
"Bring Him home," also sung by Hugh Jackman, made me think of my own son, Matthew, so of course it is one of my favorite songs.
I don't think anyone could forget the song, "One Day More," especially after seeing the live Oscar performance. I like the way the song showcases many of the actors/singers and shows quite a diversity in talent, but then they performed it at the Oscars, and wow…
I suppose many people had the initial thought, oh, she's going to pick, "I Dreamed a Dream." Honestly, on the short list of song titles I have, it is not even included. It is a wonderful song, and Anne Hathaway performed it gloriously in the movie, but it's more of a sad song for me, along the lines of…her dream was dead. And my dreams are anything but dead. They are alive, sometimes hidden, sometimes maybe even locked away for safekeeping, but not forgotten. They are growing. They are reaching out to the sunlight.
Suddenly, here I am, sitting in front of my computer, and there are so many options, there are so many pathways open before me. There is no one standing behind me whispering negativity. There is no one over in the corner, just waiting to take my dreams and rip them to shreds, stomp on them, shatter them and scatter them to the ends of the oceans.
For the first time in a really long time, I can see new beginnings, I can see dreams taking shape again, bravely crawling out of the darkness where they have remained hidden. I can see endless possibilities. I can see blue skies with clouds outlined in sparkly silver glitter, and I don't have to be afraid of someone calling up a massive storm cloud to rain on me or wash away everything of importance from me in this great, horrendous downpour. Those days are in my past.
Suddenly, I can do anything I want. I can be anyone I want. I have dreams, and I am going to chase my dreams. I am not going to rest; I am not going to settle for second best. Funny how the poet in me comes out when I feel passionately about something.
Even this week, as I am trying to get my writing more organized and get my goals clearly defined, there have been interceptions and road blocks and any other type of hindrance one can think of. I can admit…I spent a couple of hours upset and worrying, but I decided to do what I normally do when something weighs heavily on my mind. I pray about it and I sleep on it. Things always seem clearer in the morning. And, lucky for me, it did.
So, what's happening with me…April 9th is the release of the newest Chronicles of Nick book by Sherrilyn Kenyon. I recently started re-reading the first book in the series, Infinity. The second book is Invincible, the third book is Infamous, and the newest release on April 9th is Inferno. I am terribly excited. I admit…I am that geeky person that likes to read the series in order leading up to a new release.
This past week, I also purchased something very exciting to me on ebay. I bought a lot of 19 Lurlene McDaniel books. I began reading Lurlene McDaniel when I was in elementary school (those wonderful Scholastic book fairs…good grief, how I loved those things!). She was my favorite author through junior high and high school. I waited excitedly for her new releases and often times could read them in one night.
Her book that most influenced me was Six Months to Live. If I had to choose a single book that led to my dreams of being a published author…it would be this book. Just holding the book in my hands, even now, I feel like that young girl sitting in Mrs. Smith's English class at West Rome Junior High School, realizing I found my life's ambition, realizing, omg, this is me. This is what I'm meant to do!
About a year and a half ago now, I moved from Georgia to Maine. The time leading up to this move was quite troublesome for me; a lot of strife, a lot of uncertainty and basic unhappiness. It was also me deciding I was worth more. It was a season of my life that was intensified by my marriage ending, the actual process of the divorce and all of the uneasiness and worry that happened immediately afterwards, and then there was the whole moving across country. In this process, I lost a lot of physical possessions that meant a lot to me. I lost most of my books. I had all of Lurlene McDaniel books which I had begun collecting in elementary school, probably fourth grade or so, which, and I am going to date myself here, would have been about 1984.
Now, I am here in Maine, and I have what we call "Chelle's Little Corner." It is a chair where I sit to work. I work on a notebook computer, and recently, Tom (also known as the best thing to ever happen to me) gave me a big, overstuffed chair to use. And I have a table beside me on the left, and I have a bookcase on the right where I display my favorite things: seashells, some that I have collected over the years (just like with the books, I lost most of this collection), some of the sand dollars, sea urchins, and a starfish I gathered from the island, little action figures from McDonald's from the movie, Rise of the Guardians, jelly-size Mason jars I painted where I store my pens and pencils, markers and highlighters. I am such a school supply nerd! My little book case makes me happy, and I displayed my new Lurlene McDaniel books prominently in the middle because I was excited to have some of them again.
I have all of these things I want to do, all of these things I want to get accomplished. So, I have kind of had to prioritize a lot of things, and it has not been the easiest task, but I think I have a plan. One of my favorite quotes about planning comes from one of the Harry Potter movies, I believe it is Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows…Harry says, "Hermione! When have any of our plans ever actually worked? We plan, we get there, all hell breaks loose!"
And yet, I still want to have a plan, at least a guideline. It will make my OCD happy, if nothing else. This year, Mother's Day and my deceased son's birthday is the same day, so I think I would like to work on the poetry book/biography book that I had begun writing for him, detailing his illness, his struggle to simply breathe and his fight for everyday life. I had tentatively titled it, The Empty Seat. That first time I walked into my kitchen and saw his empty booster seat, or I went outside to my vehicle to be greeted by his empty car seat...I have never known such emptiness.
I also have another book, Where I Belong, that was previously published, but I am hopeful to have it re-released soon as an ebook. I love my Kindle Fire HD, and the possibility of having this story available soon in that capacity is exciting. You can ask anyone that knows me, when it pertains to the Kindle, I may possibly morph a bit into Gollum from the Lord of the Rings, holding the Kindle close to me, whispering to it, "my preciousssss."
During the month of April, I am also participating in CampNaNoWriMo, working on the young adult series I am currently writing titled Whispers of Moonlight. The first book is Saving Grace. A really short synopsis:
A group of fallen angels made a choice, to come to our world, to do what we cannot do, to save us.
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See ya'll again next week!