Definitions of Overwhelmed:
1 : upset, overthrow.
2 a : to cover over completely : submerge
b : to overcome by superior force or numbers
c : to overpower in thought or feeling.
I just keep trying to remind myself to be thankful even for being overwhelmed.
There will be years in the future, when both boys are out of the house, that I will probably miss the rushing to the appointments, the scheduling of surgeries, the excitement of job interviews.
I will miss the excitement of a gem show tomorrow, the excitement of a day trip to Salem, Massachusetts, on a perfect New England Autumn day.
Being anxious over working the jobs that I do, when I have the privilege of working from home, seems trivial. Though, at times, my anxiety seriously kicks my butt and I don't see how people leave their house on a daily basis and deal with the public. (Seriously…how do you do it? How??)
There were years in the past when I didn't even imagine I would, at any point in the future, have the 'present' that I have now, the day-to-day life where I get to share sparklies with my friends, where I get buy and sell these sparklies, where I get to continuously learn and grow with some of the kindest people I have ever known.
It seems silly to allow myself to be overwhelmed, and yet here I sit, allowing myself to be overwhelmed with the smallest of issues and the tiniest of things.
We have food in our pantry. It may not be the food the boys are always looking for, but we have food and can you really make teenage boys happy when it comes to food? I mean…really?
I have friends. Probably some of the kindest, the most sincere and most wonderful friends I have ever had.
I have family. My family and Tom's family, who are beyond amazing.
Too many good things for me to be sitting here overwhelmed.
So go away Anxiety. I don't have time for you.
Maybe I should wear my Larimar now and not wait until after Christmas.
Larimar is a crystal of serenity, promoting relaxation in every aspect. Use as a worry stone, or place in the home or workplace to assure a pleasant atmosphere.
Simply wearing Larimar creates a fundamental awareness of the "all-rightness" of the world.